Props to you for persevering with this challenge despite everything life has thrown at you. But I understand your decision to take a break from hosting - you almost got burned out this time. And I’ll take 6th considering how strong the field was this time - I’ll take up hosting duties if none of the top 5 can do so.
I encountered similar mental struggles when hosting CW7 - but I, too, eventually mustered the mental fortitude to keep going and see its judging process through to completion.